猜不透

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
rú guǒ hū yuǎn hū jìn de sǎ tuō
If drifting close then far is your idea of freedom

是你要的自由
shì nǐ yào de zì yóu
Your version of free

那我宁愿回到一个人生活
nà wǒ níng yuàn huí dào yī gè rén shēng huó
Then I’d rather go back to living on my own

（那难以提起的回忆 撕碎我在 每一秒钟
（ nà nán yǐ tí qǐ de huí yì sī suì wǒ zài měi yī miǎo zhōng
(Those memories I can’t bring myself to touch tear me apart with every passing second

都亲口说了保重 可是我总觉得好空
dōu qīn kǒu shuō le bǎo zhòng kě shì wǒ zǒng jué dé hǎo kōng
We said take care like it meant nothing, but I just feel hollow

心被绞痛 像冷与孤独 交织的冬
xīn bèi jiǎo tòng xiàng lěng yǔ gū dú jiāo zhī de dōng
My heart wrings itself out like cold and loneliness twisted into winter

有太多的隔阂 导致我们 现在没办法（再）沟通
yǒu tài duō de gé ài dǎo zhì wǒ men xiàn zài méi bàn fǎ （ zài ） gōu tōng
Too many walls between us now, we’ve got nothing left to say

先认输的人 是我没错
xiān rèn shū de rén shì wǒ méi cuò
I was the first to give up, yeah, that was me

遗憾不是 没挽回过
yí hàn bú shì méi wǎn huí guò
But regret isn’t the same as never trying

这感情有多脆弱
zhè gǎn qíng yǒu duō cuì ruò
Just how fragile was this love

随意就能被 一带而过
suí yì jiù néng bèi yī dài ér guò
That it could slip away so easily

就像孤岛 被海水埋没
jiù xiàng gū dǎo bèi hǎi shuǐ mái méi
Like an island swallowed by the sea

灯塔也不再闪烁
dēng tǎ yě bù zài shǎn shuò
And the lighthouse has gone dark

你说的确实爱过 但也没那么多
nǐ shuō de què shí ài guò dàn yě méi nà me duō
You said you really loved me, just not that much

离开前没开口 是我错失的机会
lí kāi qián méi kāi kǒu shì wǒ cuò shī de jī huì
I never spoke up before you left, and that chance is gone

除了无助 只有 那没用的眼泪
chú le wú zhù zhǐ yǒu nà méi yòng de yǎn lèi
Nothing left but helplessness and tears that can’t fix anything

总是卑微到 尘埃里
zǒng shì bēi wēi dào chén āi lǐ
Always shrinking down to nothing

随时能被代替
suí shí néng bèi dài tì
Like I could be replaced any day

尽管我多么的卖力
jǐn guǎn wǒ duō me de mài lì
No matter how hard I pushed myself

（却）换不来一句你确定
（ què ） huàn bù lái yī jù nǐ què dìng
I couldn’t get a single “I’m sure” from you

孤独在房间里泛滥 你停靠很短暂
gū dú zài fáng jiān lǐ fàn làn nǐ tíng kào hěn duǎn zàn
Loneliness floods the room, and you were only ever passing through

灯光渲染暗淡 时间也变得缓慢 Hey ya!
dēng guāng xuàn rǎn àn dàn shí jiān yě biàn dé huǎn màn Hey ya!
The light fades dim, and time slows to a crawl, Hey ya!

现实将回忆 都碾碎
xiàn shí jiāng huí yì dōu niǎn suì
Reality grinds every memory to dust

不经意 挥洒的眼泪
bù jīng yì huī sǎ de yǎn lèi
Tears falling without even realizing

曾经最信任的盔甲 最终变成了 我的软肋
céng jīng zuì xìn rèn de kuī jiǎ zuì zhōng biàn chéng le wǒ de ruǎn lē
The armor I trusted most became the place I was most exposed

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
rú guǒ hū yuǎn hū jìn de sǎ tuō
If drifting close then far is your idea of freedom

是你要的自由
shì nǐ yào de zì yóu
Your version of free

那我宁愿回到一个人生活
nà wǒ níng yuàn huí dào yī gè rén shēng huó
Then I’d rather go back to living on my own

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
rú guǒ hū lěng hū rè de wēn róu
If running hot then cold is your idea of tender

是你的借口
shì nǐ de jiè kǒu
Just your excuse

那我宁愿对你从没认真过
nà wǒ níng yuàn duì nǐ cóng méi rèn zhēn guò
Then I wish I’d never taken you seriously at all

猜不透
cāi bù tòu
I can’t figure you out

相处会比分开还寂寞
xiāng chù huì bǐ fēn kāi hái jì mò
Being together feels lonelier than being apart

两个人都只是得过且过
liǎng gè rén dōu zhǐ shì dé guò qiě guò
We were both just going through the motions

无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的
wú fǎ gǎn shòu měi cì chù mō shì zhēn de shì rè de
I couldn’t tell if any touch was real or warm anymore

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
rú guǒ hū yuǎn hū jìn de sǎ tuō
If drifting close then far is your idea of freedom

是你要的自由
shì nǐ yào de zì yóu
Your version of free

那我宁愿回到一个人生活
nà wǒ níng yuàn huí dào yī gè rén shēng huó
Then I’d rather go back to living on my own

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
rú guǒ hū lěng hū rè de wēn róu
If running hot then cold is your idea of tender

是你的借口
shì nǐ de jiè kǒu
Just your excuse

那我宁愿对你从没认真过
nà wǒ níng yuàn duì nǐ cóng méi rèn zhēn guò
Then I wish I’d never taken you seriously at all

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
rú guǒ hū yuǎn hū jìn de sǎ tuō
If drifting close then far is your idea of freedom

（如果忽远忽近的距离 也可以变得更具体化）
（ rú guǒ hū yuǎn hū jìn de jù lí yě kě yǐ biàn dé gèng jù tǐ huà ）
(If this distance between us could ever become something real)

是你要的自由
shì nǐ yào de zì yóu
Your version of free

（如果情绪能不再阴晴不定 就算是大两下）
（ rú guǒ qíng xù néng bù zài yīn qíng bù dìng jiù suàn shì dà liǎng xià ）
(If the mood swings would just stop, even when the storm rolls in)

那我宁愿
nà wǒ níng yuàn
Then I’d rather

（还如果 可惜都没有如果）
（ hái rú guǒ kě xī dōu méi yǒu rú guǒ ）
(All those what-ifs, and none of them matter)

回到一个人
huí dào yī gè rén
Go back to being alone

（从来都不确定）
（ cóng lái dōu bù què dìng ）
(Never certain, not once)

生活
shēng huó
Living

（为什么从来没有靠近你 我找不到原因）
（ wèi shén me cóng lái méi yǒu kào jìn nǐ wǒ zhǎo bú dào yuán yīn ）
(I could never find a way to get close to you, I don’t know why)

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
rú guǒ hū lěng hū rè de wēn róu
If running hot then cold is your idea of tender

（两个人仪式感的晚餐 变成一个人 冰冷的饭）
（ liǎng gè rén yí shì gǎn de wǎn cān biàn chéng yī gè rén bīng lěng de fàn ）
(Dinners meant for two turned into cold meals eaten alone)

是你的借口
shì nǐ de jiè kǒu
Just your excuse

（说白了都是自我感动 结果就留给我自己看）
（ shuō bái le dōu shì zì wǒ gǎn dòng jié guǒ jiù liú gěi wǒ zì jǐ kàn ）
(Honestly just self-pity dressed up pretty, and I’m the only one who saw it)

那我宁愿对你从没
nà wǒ níng yuàn duì nǐ cóng méi
Then I wish I’d never

（那时候 有你和我存在的场景 就有画面感）
（ nà shí hòu yǒu nǐ hé wǒ cún zài de chǎng jǐng jiù yǒu huà miàn gǎn ）
(Every scene that had both of us in it felt like something worth remembering)

认真过
rèn zhēn guò
Taken you seriously at all

（桌上放著的合照见证 我们从热烈 走到淡）
（ zhuō shàng fàng zhù de hé zhào jiàn zhèng wǒ men cóng rè liè zǒu dào dàn ）
(The photos on the table watched us go from burning to nothing)

到底这感觉谁对谁错
dào dǐ zhè gǎn jué shuí duì shuí cuò
Who was right and who was wrong, I don’t even care anymore

我已不想追究
wǒ yǐ bù xiǎng zhuī jiū
I’m done trying to find the answer

越是在乎的人越是猜不透
yuè shì zài hū de rén yuè shì cāi bù tòu
The ones who matter most are always the hardest to read